October 28th, 2012 by Kim

I’m here (Kim) in Prague at a women’s retreat and I keep telling myself, I’ve got to make a post so people know what is going on. And so people can pray for me during this special time as I make my first trip after the wreck. And so they can pray for Zac and the kids while they are home 4 days without me.

“Without me”. This is something they are used to at this point. Not something I’m comfortable about, but definitely something God is working on in me. Not a good feeling. Not good for my self -esteem. A place where satan plays dirty and baits me with elaborate lies: “they don’t need you”, “they have more fun without you”, “your not even fun” “you don’t even have joy”. And I take the bait. I take that bait and run that line so far out.

Joy. Something I have been reading a lot about this month on my favorite blog. So should I be surprised that this conference here in Prague, for missionary women (a conference I signed up for long before the wreck and long before I started this prayer blog) that is sponsored by Pure JOY International.

So, I am here with a friend from Czech (another JV missionary)  listening to the Lord, being encouraged and seeing beautiful Prague.

And now, as I leave this beautiful historic city and thinking about how I didn’t get this post finished, and how I hate to send out updates on the weekends, I still decide to send this. Even though by the time you read this I will be back home in Zilina,  I still want you to hear these things the Lord is showing me.

I am leaving this place full. Not just because they treated us like princesses and gave us gifts at every turn. Gifts that gave us a taste of home and made us feel known personally. I am full of things I want to do, things I want to change.

I want to seek God and find MY STORY? I want to be a great story teller. Like in Psalm 78: 1-4, “a teller of his glorious deeds to me”. First, I have to record those experiences, so I don’t forget them, so I don’t forget to tell them, tell them to others, to my children, to glorify God. I am excited to see what that will look like in the future.

In addition, I want to memorize more scripture. It’s been a long long time since AWANAS, since I was thirsty to hide His word in my heart, thirsty to study His word more intensely, so that each day is founded in thanksgiving for what he has done. And in that thanksgiving that I can find JOY.

 And  just when I think this place can’t get any more beautiful, the first snow begins to fall and i go and buy a hat!